I'm
waiting at the cafe at terminal 4 with Jam and Mum. I have a bottle
of coke and a glass of wine. The coke, as I'm feeling a little queasy
after a seeing-off/birthday lunch at Browns on the river. The wine, not because I want it, but because it seems absolutely necessary. At
the moment I feel that this sort of decision is the kind that might
make more sense drunk. Rosemary was right, this is not like me, at
least not yet. Maybe my drunken alter-ego will actually end up
responsible for something productive in my life.
I thus manage to induce myself leave Mum and Jamie outside duty free - in a slightly
bemused daze of disbelief. Wine has turned my frantic 'What the fuck?!'
question into a jovial 'What the fuck...” statement of acceptance/resignation.
I
walked around duty free and picked up a bottle of Dewars, seemed
legit. I conscientiously avoided the eyes of everyone. I'd
peripherally clocked a few other people on the program whom I wish I
hadn't already stalked, and would never admit having done so. I get a
missed call from Douglas, the team leader, and assume that everyone
had already met and I was running late for the party. It had to be
now. I wish I was a more naturally social creature. I feel very
scared that they would become immediately aware of the horrendous
mistake they'd made accepting me onto this course.
I
get to the gate and people are already boarding, but there seems to
be no BK peeps in sight. Panic. Were they already on the plane? Was I
in fact at the right gate (a mistake I had made before, my 16 year
old self's New York adventure almost ending inauspiciously in Austin,
Texas)? Or was this not even an elaborate prank or scam? I'm getting
overly paranoid even for my standards.
My
seat is a window as always, I HAVE to see take off and landing, I
hate being sandwiched between foreign bodies, and I don't like to be
easy to get at. Like a mafioso I also have to sit with my back to the wall
in a restaurant. Like a mammal who's taken to the trees to while away
the dangers of the night, I much prefer to sleep on mezzanines, sitting away from the aisle in a plane holds a similar degree of necessity for me. I've spied
Douglas walking down the far aisle, my more extreme paranoia monster
skulks off in defeat.
Two
rather large Kenyan ladies sit in seat B and C to my A. They seem
friendly enough but my heart sinks as I realise I already need the
loo, not because it is anatomically necessary, but because the
prospect has suddenly become all the more challenging. My heart sinks as they dive deep into intimate
discussion about something which sounds both intense, intimate, and
important. I shuffle around a bit and point my eye-line in their
direction in as un-invasive a way as possible. They are utterly
unresponsive, probably because they haven't noticed. I suck it up and
eat one of these 'Oddities' I found in Smiths. It was salty and dry
and helped. What's more they are all different shapes, literally
cheaper than chips (in the American sense of the word crisps) only
100 calories, and even taste of cheese. So much bang for your buck!
I
hear the younger of the two women next to me talk to her kid on the
phone, my heart immediately warms, she is lovely and motherly. I soon
realise that their reluctance to move was rather more to do with the
fact that the dimensions of Mrs C did not bless her with excessive
mobility. The fact that neither went to the toilet once on the 8 hour
flight meant I eventually forgave both of them for their
inertia, especially once I had discovered that they did not mind me
vaulting over the top of them in order to escape my seat. My friendly
feeling towards Mrs B increased still further whilst we were
commiserating over how uncomfortable we both were. She confided with
an awfully pained expression that she was suffering from trapped
wind, news I received with sympathy and some degree of alarm. I
suggested that a walk down the length of the plane might be just the
thing to help.
hhaha! love this. keep it up :p
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